Old Lyrics (I wrote)
Disclaimer: Some of these are ridiculously cheesy. I just find it so amusing to see my old ones since it feels like a lifetime ago. haha.
First lyrics I ever wrote: 5-18-06
-Foreboding Tangle-
I wait and I listen,
for those words you will speak,
like angel's breath next to my air,
sweet and soft, yet so incomplete,
full of nothings yet everything,
while you hold me tight,
a dark love so forbidding,
enfolding me in your radiant light,
it feels so wrong,
its so right,
hot yet so cold,
like fire and ice,
burning one minute, freezing the next,
tearing me apart inside,
ensnaring me,
catching me,
with my innocence to bear,
laying next to you you taint me,
link ink bleeding through paper,
so dark and so messy,
so clean and so light,
so cruel and so sweet,
our foreboding tangle,
the end of a beginning,
the beginning to an end,
of a short little lust,
like smoke lost in the wind.
7-28-06
-My Heart's Defense-
I've tried so many times
With so many guys,
But this heart of mine,
Just won't calm down.
Nothing seems to last long,
And it seems nothing's all I deal,
I try to kid myself,
But my heart has lost its ability to feel.
My feelings never seem to stick
When I fall, I fall fast,
But it's over just as quick,
It all just fades away.
Nothing seems to last long,
And it seems nothing's all I deal,
I try to kid myself,
But my heart has lost its ability to feel.
I start up again,
I say he won't be like the last,
But again it all turns to gray,
I just keep repeating my past.
Nothing seems to last long,
And it seems nothing's all I deal,
I try to kid myself,
But my heart has lost its ability to feel.
I wish I didn't,
Always fear,
Wish I could make it last,
Let them get near,
And stop repeating my past.
Nothing seems to last long,
And it seems nothing's all I deal,
I try to kid myself,
But my heart has lost its ability to feel.
Nothing seems to last long,
And it seems nothing's all I deal,
I try to kid myself,
But my heart has lost its ability to feel.
Wish I could let them get near,
Through my heart's defense.
7-28-06
-Look Around-
Controversial attitudes seem to be for sale,
Faking - its the new thing,
Yet everyone seems to have their own sad, sorry tale,
In the air around us empty threats seem to ring,
Lies are like murder,
With more of a sting.
Stand up, sit down,
I'm tired of being told what to do,
I'm taking a stand!
So should you!
Inner beauty's just a thing of the past,
All that's left is plastic money,
Used to buy what won't last,
I find them funny,
These foolish ideas,
That will be empty in just a matter of years.
Stand up, sit down,
I'm tired of being told what to do,
I'm taking a stand!
So should you!
In these times, life seems full of wrong turns,
Murder's become a game,
And nobody wants to learn,
They all want the glory and the fame,
For the best or for the worst,
From saving lives to driving hearses.
Stand up, sit down,
I'm tired of being told what to do,
I'm taking a stand!
So should you!
Seems everyone is just out to save their own ass.
When did everyone stop looking around?
The rich are the ones hoarding all the cash.
When did we all start looking down at the ground?
We've all just given in to society's beliefs,
Everyone's too scared to let out a peep,
Without even a fight we all stood down,
No one wants to look like the idiot clown.
Stand up, sit down,
I'm tired of being told what to do,
I'm taking a stand!
So should you!
Stand up, sit down,
I'm tired of being told what to do,
I'm taking a stand!
Why aren't you?
7-31-06
-Reminders of Us-
Sitting under this tree,
Reminds me of days spent with you,
The air seems to smell so sweet,
Do you smell it too?
We used to sit in the grass,
With our backs on the warm ground,
Looking up at the clouds,
Laughing at the silly little people in this town.
Sitting under this tree,
Reminds me of days spent with you,
The air seems to smell so sweet,
Do you smell it too?
The sun shining through the leaves,
I remember how it hit your face,
The warmth of your shoulder against mine,
The world seemed to slow its pace.
Sitting under this tree,
Reminds me of days spent with you,
The air seems to smell so sweet,
Do you smell it too?
Everything's a constant reminder of us,
The reason my heart hasn't healed,
But don't worry yourself, I'll be fine,
'Cause the cracks are being sealed.
Sitting under this tree,
Reminds me of days spent with you,
The air seems to smell so sweet,
Do you smell it too?
Sitting under this tree,
Reminds me of days spent with you,
You feel it too, don't you?
8-13-06
-This Prison of Mine-
These curtains are made of glass,
And I'm on center stage,
The show is over and past,
Again I'm in my cage.
Thoughts are closing in,
These morals make my prison,
So afraid of simple sin,
But you no longer care to listen.
These curtains are made of glass,
And I'm on center stage,
The show is over and past,
Again I'm in my cage.
Afraid of what's inside,
The emptiness of my heart,
Ashamed of all the lies,
I can't seem to make a new start.
These curtains are made of glass,
And I'm on center stage,
The show is over and past,
Again I'm in my cage.
This coldness in the air,
Burns me down deep within my soul,
This pain I can no longer bear,
Misery is about to take its toll.
These curtains are made of glass,
And I'm on center stage,
The show is over and past,
Again I'm in my cage.
These curtains are made of glass,
And I'm on center stage,
The show is over and past,
Again in this cage.
These curtains are made of glass,
And I'm on center stage,
The show is over and past,
Again I create my cage.
9-20-06
-Hard Hearted-
Seems so long ago,
My heart, would skip a beat,
Every time I saw you,
My legs, would turn so weak.
But I guess I screwed up,
And lost you,
I never even knew,
So nowadays I'm singing,
A completely, different tune.
I hate you,
Can't stand you,
Want you gone from here.
You hate me,
Try to break me,
Say that you don't care.
How did we end up like this?
So miserable and dark.
When in each others' presence,
The anger seems to spark.
How did we end up like this?
Were our broken hearts the start?
Or did our pride just blind us?
And turn our hearts so dark.
But don't misunderstand me.
I hate you,
Can't stand you,
Want you gone from here.
You can hate me,
Try to break me,
I really don't care.
11-29-06
-Tidal Darkness- *with some changes since my view has changed to starkly on the situation
We're walking and she sees her,
Everywhere we go,
Any woman of her height,
Her build,
Her color.
Even though its not her,
She continues looking.
A wicked witch who's broken-hearted,
Looking for her little girl,
Who has long since found freedom.
Her world is one of mass illusions,
Built on a foundation of broken hearts.
Her worrisome thoughts twist through my life,
Choking me,
Suffocating my will.
I do my best to swim above the chaos,
The lies,
The hatred.
Its like a whirlpool pulling me down to a dark state of life.
She is down there,
I try to pull her to safety,
But the darkness is all she knows.
I have no choice,
but to choose.
Will I try to save her till I myself am lost?
Or will I let her go and fly free,
With the possibility of being alone.
Two paths so dark.
If only this could be a different life.
7-25-06
-Her Weapon-
Thrown into the middle of a war-zone,
These walls are closing in,
Foolish windows are no help,
The knife to my heart,
Forcing me to shoot.
She said destroy as much as possible,
She said kill whomever I say,
But with every shot I take,
I kill myself,
Over and over again.
Dead and buried for a moment or two,
Then I'm right back out there again,
In No Man's Land,
With this gun in my hand.
But no bullet is as cold,
As my heart has become.
She said destroy as much as possible,
She said kill whomever I say,
But with every shot I take,
I kill myself,
Over and over again.
She pushes me time after time,
Time to pick up my gun again,
And make the next kill,
Forget your conscience,
Forget your heart,
Turn cold and calm,
And do what I say.
She said destroy as much as possible,
She said kill whomever I say,
But with every shot I take,
I kill myself,
Over and over again.
I think my heart's turned metallic now,
No more room left for love,
Say goodbye to the enemy,
And shoot them one last time,
Goodbye to you too chief,
Another bullet out of my gun.
She said destroy as much as possible,
She said kill whomever I say,
But with every shot I take,
I kill myself,
Over and over again.
Goodbye to me now,
Goodbye world I say,
Goodbye to the weapon,
For karma's got to be paid.
New Lyrics in the works:
4-6-09
-Breakthrough-
Lacking direction
Life going stale,
Love's a danger,
More fearful than jail,
Not sure where to turn,
Or which way is up,
Brain is boiling,
Heart's burning up.
Break out,
Break down,
Live life surrounded by sound.
Don't fear,
Don't care,
Break through.
...to be continued....
First lyrics I ever wrote: 5-18-06
-Foreboding Tangle-
I wait and I listen,
for those words you will speak,
like angel's breath next to my air,
sweet and soft, yet so incomplete,
full of nothings yet everything,
while you hold me tight,
a dark love so forbidding,
enfolding me in your radiant light,
it feels so wrong,
its so right,
hot yet so cold,
like fire and ice,
burning one minute, freezing the next,
tearing me apart inside,
ensnaring me,
catching me,
with my innocence to bear,
laying next to you you taint me,
link ink bleeding through paper,
so dark and so messy,
so clean and so light,
so cruel and so sweet,
our foreboding tangle,
the end of a beginning,
the beginning to an end,
of a short little lust,
like smoke lost in the wind.
7-28-06
-My Heart's Defense-
I've tried so many times
With so many guys,
But this heart of mine,
Just won't calm down.
Nothing seems to last long,
And it seems nothing's all I deal,
I try to kid myself,
But my heart has lost its ability to feel.
My feelings never seem to stick
When I fall, I fall fast,
But it's over just as quick,
It all just fades away.
Nothing seems to last long,
And it seems nothing's all I deal,
I try to kid myself,
But my heart has lost its ability to feel.
I start up again,
I say he won't be like the last,
But again it all turns to gray,
I just keep repeating my past.
Nothing seems to last long,
And it seems nothing's all I deal,
I try to kid myself,
But my heart has lost its ability to feel.
I wish I didn't,
Always fear,
Wish I could make it last,
Let them get near,
And stop repeating my past.
Nothing seems to last long,
And it seems nothing's all I deal,
I try to kid myself,
But my heart has lost its ability to feel.
Nothing seems to last long,
And it seems nothing's all I deal,
I try to kid myself,
But my heart has lost its ability to feel.
Wish I could let them get near,
Through my heart's defense.
7-28-06
-Look Around-
Controversial attitudes seem to be for sale,
Faking - its the new thing,
Yet everyone seems to have their own sad, sorry tale,
In the air around us empty threats seem to ring,
Lies are like murder,
With more of a sting.
Stand up, sit down,
I'm tired of being told what to do,
I'm taking a stand!
So should you!
Inner beauty's just a thing of the past,
All that's left is plastic money,
Used to buy what won't last,
I find them funny,
These foolish ideas,
That will be empty in just a matter of years.
Stand up, sit down,
I'm tired of being told what to do,
I'm taking a stand!
So should you!
In these times, life seems full of wrong turns,
Murder's become a game,
And nobody wants to learn,
They all want the glory and the fame,
For the best or for the worst,
From saving lives to driving hearses.
Stand up, sit down,
I'm tired of being told what to do,
I'm taking a stand!
So should you!
Seems everyone is just out to save their own ass.
When did everyone stop looking around?
The rich are the ones hoarding all the cash.
When did we all start looking down at the ground?
We've all just given in to society's beliefs,
Everyone's too scared to let out a peep,
Without even a fight we all stood down,
No one wants to look like the idiot clown.
Stand up, sit down,
I'm tired of being told what to do,
I'm taking a stand!
So should you!
Stand up, sit down,
I'm tired of being told what to do,
I'm taking a stand!
Why aren't you?
7-31-06
-Reminders of Us-
Sitting under this tree,
Reminds me of days spent with you,
The air seems to smell so sweet,
Do you smell it too?
We used to sit in the grass,
With our backs on the warm ground,
Looking up at the clouds,
Laughing at the silly little people in this town.
Sitting under this tree,
Reminds me of days spent with you,
The air seems to smell so sweet,
Do you smell it too?
The sun shining through the leaves,
I remember how it hit your face,
The warmth of your shoulder against mine,
The world seemed to slow its pace.
Sitting under this tree,
Reminds me of days spent with you,
The air seems to smell so sweet,
Do you smell it too?
Everything's a constant reminder of us,
The reason my heart hasn't healed,
But don't worry yourself, I'll be fine,
'Cause the cracks are being sealed.
Sitting under this tree,
Reminds me of days spent with you,
The air seems to smell so sweet,
Do you smell it too?
Sitting under this tree,
Reminds me of days spent with you,
You feel it too, don't you?
8-13-06
-This Prison of Mine-
These curtains are made of glass,
And I'm on center stage,
The show is over and past,
Again I'm in my cage.
Thoughts are closing in,
These morals make my prison,
So afraid of simple sin,
But you no longer care to listen.
These curtains are made of glass,
And I'm on center stage,
The show is over and past,
Again I'm in my cage.
Afraid of what's inside,
The emptiness of my heart,
Ashamed of all the lies,
I can't seem to make a new start.
These curtains are made of glass,
And I'm on center stage,
The show is over and past,
Again I'm in my cage.
This coldness in the air,
Burns me down deep within my soul,
This pain I can no longer bear,
Misery is about to take its toll.
These curtains are made of glass,
And I'm on center stage,
The show is over and past,
Again I'm in my cage.
These curtains are made of glass,
And I'm on center stage,
The show is over and past,
Again in this cage.
These curtains are made of glass,
And I'm on center stage,
The show is over and past,
Again I create my cage.
9-20-06
-Hard Hearted-
Seems so long ago,
My heart, would skip a beat,
Every time I saw you,
My legs, would turn so weak.
But I guess I screwed up,
And lost you,
I never even knew,
So nowadays I'm singing,
A completely, different tune.
I hate you,
Can't stand you,
Want you gone from here.
You hate me,
Try to break me,
Say that you don't care.
How did we end up like this?
So miserable and dark.
When in each others' presence,
The anger seems to spark.
How did we end up like this?
Were our broken hearts the start?
Or did our pride just blind us?
And turn our hearts so dark.
But don't misunderstand me.
I hate you,
Can't stand you,
Want you gone from here.
You can hate me,
Try to break me,
I really don't care.
11-29-06
-Tidal Darkness- *with some changes since my view has changed to starkly on the situation
We're walking and she sees her,
Everywhere we go,
Any woman of her height,
Her build,
Her color.
Even though its not her,
She continues looking.
A wicked witch who's broken-hearted,
Looking for her little girl,
Who has long since found freedom.
Her world is one of mass illusions,
Built on a foundation of broken hearts.
Her worrisome thoughts twist through my life,
Choking me,
Suffocating my will.
I do my best to swim above the chaos,
The lies,
The hatred.
Its like a whirlpool pulling me down to a dark state of life.
She is down there,
I try to pull her to safety,
But the darkness is all she knows.
I have no choice,
but to choose.
Will I try to save her till I myself am lost?
Or will I let her go and fly free,
With the possibility of being alone.
Two paths so dark.
If only this could be a different life.
7-25-06
-Her Weapon-
Thrown into the middle of a war-zone,
These walls are closing in,
Foolish windows are no help,
The knife to my heart,
Forcing me to shoot.
She said destroy as much as possible,
She said kill whomever I say,
But with every shot I take,
I kill myself,
Over and over again.
Dead and buried for a moment or two,
Then I'm right back out there again,
In No Man's Land,
With this gun in my hand.
But no bullet is as cold,
As my heart has become.
She said destroy as much as possible,
She said kill whomever I say,
But with every shot I take,
I kill myself,
Over and over again.
She pushes me time after time,
Time to pick up my gun again,
And make the next kill,
Forget your conscience,
Forget your heart,
Turn cold and calm,
And do what I say.
She said destroy as much as possible,
She said kill whomever I say,
But with every shot I take,
I kill myself,
Over and over again.
I think my heart's turned metallic now,
No more room left for love,
Say goodbye to the enemy,
And shoot them one last time,
Goodbye to you too chief,
Another bullet out of my gun.
She said destroy as much as possible,
She said kill whomever I say,
But with every shot I take,
I kill myself,
Over and over again.
Goodbye to me now,
Goodbye world I say,
Goodbye to the weapon,
For karma's got to be paid.
New Lyrics in the works:
4-6-09
-Breakthrough-
Lacking direction
Life going stale,
Love's a danger,
More fearful than jail,
Not sure where to turn,
Or which way is up,
Brain is boiling,
Heart's burning up.
Break out,
Break down,
Live life surrounded by sound.
Don't fear,
Don't care,
Break through.
...to be continued....
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