In Hindsight
I thought I was okay but— [I thought I had tricked myself into thinking I was over you, Because you belittled my feelings when I was upset, alienated me from my friends, and would dismiss my opinions with your own. But I was still learning how to actually talk about my feelings, Learning what I actually wanted from life, And would constantly push myself away from everyone in the real world when my blue feelings would take hold. I started to realize this but I didn’t know how to fix it until more recently, But time had started to fall away from me, I was burnt out and wore myself thin. I would say to myself that I would make plans with you on Friday, But then suddenly it would be the following Tuesday. My friends would have been pissed about that, Not for anything I said to them, But for your behavior before the breakup, Constantly calling and texting me while I was with them, Even though you knew I was with them. But you were better about that once we were in th