The Thought Garden

You know those little figurines that you wind up, and they spin around and play music box type of music? They always remind me of my childhood. When I would spin them and they'd play music I felt like a princess. It was like they were my own personal musicians. I would wind them up over and over, and dance around my bedroom, spinning until I was dizzy. My smile would fill up my entire face, and I would laugh, just because it felt good. But sometimes when no one's looking I try to feel like that again, but with even simpler things, like the way the sky looks, or the perfection of a tree. It's just being grateful for the little things that make me stay sane in this hectic, responsibility driven world. One day I will make a big movie or tv series. No if's or but's. I will, no matter what, accomplish that. And this piece will be both interesting to the point where its gossiped about on facebook, and thought provoking. It will make people realize that although electronic...

The biggest curse of my life right now is the fact that I took forever to realize what I love. It was staring me in the face and I was completely oblivious: movies. I love writing. I love being "on stage" , even though it scares the hell out of me. To put it bluntly: acting, screenwriting, directing, etc. And now I feel like I'm too old to do anything about it. I'm utterly sick of regular college. I can't afford film school. I never joined any acting circles, mostly because they weren't available to me (damn sheltered childhood). I know, I'm complaining again. I'm just having one of those days where I'm tempted to bash my head against the wall for my stupidity/blindness. I'd kill to move to London, go to film school, and get a job in the film industry. Sadly, like I said...I'm broke, and no matter how much I save up it will be too late by the time I have enough. I mean I wouldn't even be going to regular college if it wasn't f...